My Cup will be Half Full

With no permanent residence, the last 2-3 weeks have been quite the adventure for me and Jordan. I would be lying if I said it was all fun and easy! Several times we have expressed our frustration with the situation. “We are so tired of lugging our suitcases around everywhere” “We are so tired of eating out” “We are so tired of unloading and repacking every night or two” Complaint, complaint, complaint…

After visiting with a good customer and friend at work yesterday, I began to have a different outlook on our current situation. As she was shopping, we started visiting about the holidays and about the pillows her mother in law had previously purchased from us for her birthday. She mentioned using them in her guest room, and I told her we are getting a new house and I thought that would be a great idea for our new guest room as well! Turns out, she and her husband are in the same situation as Jordan and I. As we continued discussing the similarities of houses we had looked at, places we are staying, and so on, she said something that made me stop in my tracks. She mentioned that throughout this time period, they have really become so grateful for the things they do have and less concerned with material blessings. (They, also, have nearly all of their belongings in storage and have been living with the “bare minimum”.) In more or less words, as her eyes began to water, she told me how she really felt that they needed this time to get their priorities straight in life and to realize the things that are most important. Eventually, our conversation came to a close, we wished each other well, and she went on her way. The rest of the night, this conversation ran through my head. How terrible of an attitude I have had! Don’t get me wrong, I am so grateful for all of those who have housed and fed us and am so excited to get to move into a new house, but all the while we have been waiting, my attitude has not proved to be one of thanksgiving. Life really could be a lot worse and more difficult for us than it is! 

Each year at Christmas, Jordan and I have a tradition of giving each other one ornament. We carefully choose which ornament to give to one another, whether it be a silly ornament or a "meaningful" ornament. This year Jordan made me the best ornament yet! He made a wooden house and wrote several things on it, including our new address. One thing he wrote, though, really stuck out: "Our first house, but not our first HOME". All of the actual structure, furniture, decor, etc make a house, but love and family make a HOME. I have realized that the old saying is true "Home is where your heart is". Although we don't have a house right now we have many homes (time share, friends houses, families houses, etc). And we will always have many homes as our hearts will always be in Yoakum and in Dripping, but OUR home is wherever we are together! (if I had the ornament with me, I would add a picture. Maybe some day I will get it up here!) :)

With running a business, I encounter so many people on a day to day basis. I often wonder what I can do to influence their lives for the better. In the meantime, this customer in particular, has influenced my life for the better! So grateful for her and all the sweet people we have met throughout the past 3 years with the store. I pray that I always portray a Christ-like attitude that will encourage our customers and all those I encounter.  “In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven” Matthew 5:16

I resolve to see my “cup” as half full rather than half empty this year. “Rejoice in the Lord always, again I say rejoice” Phil. 4:4

Who knew a conversation about these pillows could turn in to so much?!

Christmas 2012

Another Christmas has come and gone once again. It feels like it was just yesterday that Jordan and I were looking forward to being off work together for 5 days…but in reality, that was about seven days ago and we are back to work once again! I would say “back in the normal swing of things”, but life is far from “normal”. As we are waiting for paperwork to be completed for our new house, Jordan and I have been “homeless”for 11 days now. With two trailers and a garage full of our stuff, two vehicles packed with 4 suitcases of clothes and shoes and shower necessities, and a dog, moving from place to place every few nights, it is safe to say we are tired, frustrated, and ready to be in OUR HOUSE! We are, however, so thankful for friends, family, and the timeshare in Canyon Lake for housing us (and our stuff) over this “in between” period.

Our living situation at this time is not normal, but I would also venture to say there was nothing “normal” about this holiday season. As many things have and are changing, we tried to make the holiday season “normal”, but it just wasn’t the same. I know most things never will be the same, but at what point does something new become “normal”? Or does it ever?

Families change, traditions change, people change, and people grow                                                 

Days go by and life goes on, hold on tight, because quickly it goes                                                               

Sometimes it’s fair and sometimes it’s not           

Just remember to be happy for what you've got.                                                                             

Above all and throughout all change, I must remember to treat others the way I would like to be treated, even when it’s hard. As other things continue to change, I try to remind myself that life isn’t always “fair” and may never again be “normal” as we once knew it to be. I must learn to be content in whatever circumstance I am in and remember that change is part of God’s plan. There's always comfort to be found in the scriptures, and for He, who never changes, I am thankful!

“For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven:

a time to be born, and a time to die;
a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
a time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to break down, and a time to build up;
a time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
a time to seek, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
a time to tear, and a time to sew;
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
a time to love, and a time to hate;
a time for war, and a time for peace.”

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

Thy Will, Not Mine

Over the past 8-10 months, something has weighed heavily on my heart and in my mind. For those of you who do not know, my sweet Nannaw’s time here on earth ended on March 31 this year. After about seven years of fighting, the cancer won. It has been a difficult journey for us all, my Pawpaw especially. When she passed, Nannaw and Pawpaw were just a couple of months away from their 68^th wedding anniversary. 68 years of marriage! What a beautiful marriage they had. A relationship, marriage, and family built upon the Lord, their Rock. This strong foundation showed in all they did in their day to day lives. Nannaw always had such sound advice; Pawpaw always talking about biblical things. Not only were/are their words an encouragement but also their actions. Nannaw was truly a Proverbs 31 woman. (I tried to pick a verse from Proverbs 31 to use, but the entire chapter is fitting). Pawpaw truly loved her as Christ loves the church and showed that love every day. I started to notice something said in Pawpaw’s prayers about a year or so ago. Of course, we always prayed for Nannaw and her health as she was struggling with the cancer. The difference between my prayer, though, and Pawpaw’s prayer were five little words. “If it be Thy will” I cannot remember a time that Pawpaw prayed for her without praying “if it be Thy will”. When I recognized this about a year ago, I started thinking, “why am I not praying this way?” I know that this is the attitude and prayer that we should have, but it seems so hard. I began to try to include this “phrase” in my daily prayers for Nannaw. However, I never felt sincere when saying “if it be Thy will”. I was so afraid that His will, would not be in line with my will. My will, of course, was for Nannaw to beat cancer and be with us here on earth for a much longer time. Then I started telling myself, if Pawpaw, of all people can pray this way, why can’t I? He was her husband, they were made “as one” nearly 68 years ago, they spent all day every day together, they worshiped together, they ate every meal together, they (at one time) milked cows together, they sat on the front porch together, the watched Dr. Phil together... everything they did, they did together. He was the one that would be most affected by her illness or passing. Yet, he was the one who could sincerely plead to God to heal his wife, but only if it be God’s will. I am not sure if Pawpaw will ever know the impact he has had on my life, especially my prayer life. Among many other things, he has showed me how I ought to pray and how strong my faith ought to be. Jesus showed us the same type of example when He prayed in the garden of Gethsemane. He was approaching the time of His crucifixion, yet He prayed “My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass away from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as Thou wilt.” In order to pray “Thy will, not mine,” we must be able to deny self and fully trust in God, even when it is really hard. I am convinced that if I can get to the point to where I can sincerely pray “Thy will, not mine” about all things, then this attitude will carry over into my every day interactions with other people. God first, others second, me last.

Pawpaw prayed for Nannaw every day that she fought that cancer. God answered his prayers, just not with the answer we all wanted. However, Pawpaw’s trust in and love for God did not allow his faith to waiver. He is still as faithful as ever and still prays the most humble, sincere, selfless prayers I have ever heard. I thank God for him as his example and pray that my faith can be strengthened enough so that I can sincerely pray Thy will, not mine about all things.

Texas Youth Hunt Weekend

After several failed password attempts, I finally was able to log-back-in to my blog. I then realized it had been well over a year since I had written. So I thought, why not give it a try again?

This past weekend, Jordan and I spent our time with 8 youth hunters and their parents/guardians on 1100 acres of land owned by some very kind families. For those of you unfamiliar with the program, Texas Parks and Wildlife Department runs the Texas Youth Hunt Program (TYHP) across the state in many different areas, several times a year. Jordan has completed the required course to become a “Huntmaster” and help run these hunts. I go along with him as the cook and have named myself the “Cookmaster” of the weekend J. The “facilities” are very primitive. We camp in tents, cook over a propane heated “stove”, use a water hose about 25 yards away for cooking, go without electricity, and use a hole dug in the ground with a pop up tent for a bathroom. Let’s just say, feeding/organizing/arranging/teaching/transporting 30 people in these conditions with little sleep can be a little interesting at times. Here is a schedule of our TYHP Weekend:

Friday:

-Arrive at camp (around Gonzales, near Palmetto State Park this time) around 5:00 pm.

-Unload the food and coolers, begin to set up camp, and go for a tour with the land owners to find and mark the way to the hunting blinds where we will be taking the hunters and their parents all weekend.

-Finish setting up camp, make sure the hunters have turned in their paperwork/qualifications/requirements/etc, have a short introduction/rules/timeline/schedule meeting with everyone, then go to sleep.

Saturday:

-Wake up at 4 am to get “cold breakfast” ready for hunters and parents. This include cereal, pastries, pop tarts, coffee, hot chocolate)

-Load up to take hunters and parents to blinds by 5:15-5:30.

-Come back to camp around 6:30-7:00 and take an hour NAP!

-around 9 am, I start making breakfast (breakfast tacos) and Jordan goes to pick up the hunters at 9:30.

-Then we eat, clean up, clean deer, give the hunters a “skills test” (hunter safety), have lunch (sandwiches), and take the hunters back out to the blinds around 3:00.

-I start getting supper ready around 4:00 (stew), then we pick them up and eat around 8:30. Clean up, clean deer, and get to bed around midnight.

Sunday:

-Same morning routine…4 am for breakfast, take hunters and parents to blinds, pick them up, have hot breakfast (pancakes, sausage, and eggs), clean up and clean deer.

-Have the hunters write thank you notes, pack up camp, take pictures, and head home around 12 noon!

To some, this may sound like an awful weekend; however, it really is not that bad, and at times, is enjoyable! I like being outdoors, seeing the excitement in the hunters, preparing food for them, etc. I do not exactly care for the bathroom situation, flies, hard ground for sleeping, or lack of shower. Anyway, we volunteer to be there to help teach the young hunters about the outdoors, hunter safety, cleaning harvested animals, etc. What a great opportunity Jordan and I have to be an influence on these families. We have a chance to be an example to them by our actions and our words: praying before our meals, thanking God for His creation, being patient, being helpful, being servants, etc. Although we had a great opportunity to be Godly examples, I find myself looking back and asking, "Was a Godly example for these people I volunteered to help over the weekend? Could they tell by my words and my actions that I am a Christian? Or did I sigh and become frustrated when the hunters left trash on the ground? Did I mumble and complain when those who were supposed to wash the dirty dishes rushed off to head home and left a stack for me to clean?" I am ashamed to say the answer is yes, I did sigh and become frustrated, I did mumble and complain.

Reflecting on the weekend, I thought about Jesus as a servant, I thought of John 13. Jesus showed the apostles how to be a servant. He knew that Judas would betray Him, He knew that Peter would deny Him, He knew His crucifixion was nearing, but He still washed their feet! He could have easily said, “I am doing all this for you, yet you are going to betray me, so I don’t want to wash your feet.” He could have sighed, mumbled, complained about the road He was about to travel to the cross, but He didn’t. Jesus showed us the heart of a servant many times, and I am so grateful for His example. All I had to do this weekend was cook for the hunters and their parents, yet I too easily became frustrated, complained, mumbled, and sighed because they didn’t help clean up. Jesus gave so much more than a weekend of cooking for the entire world, and He did it without mumbling and complaining. I am thankful for the opportunity to learn from God's Word and so thankful that Jesus showed us how to be true servants. I was on the hunt to be a servant, but I pray that I remember that I was put on this earth to be a servant everywhere, everyday.
Although these TYHP weekends are meant to be learning experiences for the youth hunters, this past weekend was a learning experience for me.

Mark 10:45…”For the Son of Man came not to be served but to serve, and to give His life as a ransom for many.”

"Sex Sells"

While watching a show on TBS yesterday, a commercial came on stating "SEX SELLS" over and over again. This was an advertisement for a couple of movies that were going to be showing in the near future on TBS. This commercial really bothered me for several reasons. I thought, what if a child was watching TV when this commercial came on; what lesson is he/she learning from this type of advertisement? What about teenagers who are trying to find "their place" and fit in with the "popular crowd"? Another disturbing thought is that, unfortunately, the commercial was actually smart advertising, at least for a great percentage of this world. I have found myself wondering "what do the parents of these individuals think of their children"? When commercials from companies such as Victoria's Secret come across the screen, I think, each of those ladies, at one time, was someone's little girl. Did their parents ever imagine they would see their innocent child grow up to be nearly naked in front of the entire nation on television? Are they proud of their daughters or ashamed? Did they raise them differently, do they even keep in touch? Their earthly parents may not care, but I know our Heavenly Father does care and is ashamed by these actions. (1 Timothy 2:9-10) I also wonder: Do these women have husbands? If so, how do their husbands feel about their wife's body being displayed on national TV? What about children. Are these ladies mothers? What kind of example are they for their kids, nieces, nephews, cousins, friends' kids? As ladies, we are instructed to teach younger ladies ways to live a Godly life. (Titus 2:4-5) I hope that this commercial has sparked a concern in homes that will lead to better instruction and example for the younger generations.

Weekly Supper Scene

Between camping and cleaning up left overs, I have not made any meal plans the past two weeks. Due to work again this week, we only have three nights planned for supper. 

Tuesday:     Ribs (on the grill by Jordan or cooked in foil in the oven)

Wednesday:     BBQ Beef Cups

 1 lb hamburger meat, shredded cheese, Grands flaky biscuits, 1/2 c bbq sauce, 1 TBS brown sugar

-Preheat oven to 400. Brown meat, drain grease, remove from heat. Stir in BBq sauce and brown sugar. Grease muffin pan. Put one biscuit in each section of a jumbo muffin pan. Stretch dough up the sides of the cups. Divide meat mixture among biscuit cups, sprinkle with cheese. Bake until golden brown (10-12 min)

Thursday:       Tacos

Weekly Supper Scene

This past Sunday we purchased a Sunday paper the check out the coupons....this is my new weekly practice! My coupon savings was $12 for this week! I even planned a few of our purchases/meals around the coupons and was able to combine newspaper coupons with HEB coupons. This is actually turning out to be fun!

Monday:            Jordan worked so we did not have a big meal.

Tuesday:            Jamaican Seasoned Pork and Mashed Potatoes
                       I used jerk sauce, brown sugar, lime juice, and vinegar to season the pork and cooked it on the griddle.

Wednesday:      Ranch Cheeseburgers
                         1 lb hamburger meat, 1 package Original Ranch Salad Dressing Seasoning Mix, Shredded Cheddar Cheese, Hamburger buns

                        Mix meat, seasoning mix, and cheese. Make patties and cook!

Thursday:           Pizza Rolls
                         (did not get to make last week)

Friday:                 Jordan works!